I miss writing. I’ve been so caught up with trying to get my life “figured out” that I’ve put one of my favorite things- my passion- on the back burner.
Well here’s what I’ve figured out in the time I’ve been absent: You can’t figure it all out. There will never be a point in my life when I can look at my future and say I have it all planned to a T. That’s just not the way life works.
So often I find myself feeling like I should be doing something- anything- but what I am doing. I worry that I won’t have time to travel the world. I worry that I’m never going to be making enough money. I worry that I’m not home to spend enough time with my family. I worry that life is going to pass me by.
And if I continue to worry so much, it will pass me by. Because I’ll be wasting the time I have been given to live and dream with worries about things much bigger than me. It’s not something I think any one person can tackle on their own. It’s not an equation with a simple solution.
So I’m going to quit worrying. What I’m doing right now is the best I can do right now. I’m not hopping on a jet plane every other day, or swimming with orcas, or saving the world (..yet), but I am living in a big ‘ol city with some of my favorite people in the world, and that’s pretty good for now.
Every day I get to challenge myself, see and try new things, take in a fresh perspective, and learn. I learn more about what I do like and what I don’t. I learn more and more about the person I want to become, and eventually all of these little lessons will lead me to the perfect place. And as exhausting as it can be, I’m really happy where I am.
So if you’re like me (a control freak) I’m letting you know that its ok to not know it all. Life is about the journey- not the destination.
ALRIGHT. That felt really good…